work it

Gettin in a quick blog before i go to work, cos i havent blogged ina while. Update with me ? Nothing much really. Just working, bills, school, and finding time in between to kick it and let loose. I've realized just recently though, just how addicting working can get. People say i work too much now, but if you think about it, it all pays off in the end. Im kind of happy that i have something my money goes toward now, just because i know that in any other situation i'd end up wasting my money on useless things. But im starting to buckle down and get everything under control. Its stressful, but relieving at the same time. Arrite, gotta go before im late for work. Adios (:

love, actually.

"&wasn't it you who said you didnt want to end up like them. The everyday, average, ordinary. We were meant to be something more than ordinary. Something extravagant. I can't seem to get you out of my system, and i kind of wanna keep it that way."

"One day, i will break. I will finally tell you everything that i've ever want to tell you. I will get it off of my chest, let it all go, and i will feel like the world has been lifted off my shoulders. One day, i will let you know how much you hurt me, made me, broke me, and lifted me. I will let you know that i still feel butterflies whenever i see you, and how it still feels like the first day we met, all over again. I'll show you that i would've done anything to show you that i genuinely cared, and you werent like the others. One day i'll bring back all the memories, we'll reminisce, and we'll laugh for hours. I'll make you realize that despite all of our difficulties, what we had was real. No matter how much we want to forget about the past and its bad memories. Those memories made us, and the people we've grown to become. One day."

"I never wanted anything real to begin with, because with real love comes real pain. I never really wanted to fall for you, but the most unexpected surprises become the ones we learn the most from. Thanks, alot."

ima need you to trust me

Back in Vallejo for the night, & it kinda feels good to be home. Mmm, im taking home the whole box of vienna sausages. Fuck the bullshit. Haha. Btw, my uncle's boutta get me a rice cooker for the apartment next week. Haaaay ! Haha. Bout to be gettin on the rice hype now, finally. I feel like my meals havent been complete without rice. How asian -_-. Haha well, today i went back to Fairfield for the night. Watched a movie with nat, Hookah-ed at BeauShmo's, then i went back home to start on my laundry. Haha.

I feel like i need to get something off my chest, but im just not ready yet. Maybe just a little bit longer. Gnite, world.

make this moment last forever

Things are finally falling into place for me. Got things figured out with school, got a job with actual hours, been working my butt off to get the bills paid, got my SacFam. Idk, i feel like im transitioning a lot better than i expected. Im pretty sure things are bound to get more difficult, but i'll just deal with that when the time comes. Im finally doing things with my life. I feel like, if i stayed in vallejo, i would've never done anything with my life. Just go to school, go home, party, hang out, and repeat the same routine everyday. It actually feels kinda good. But yeah, school starts on the 31st of this month. Might go camping with Marbs and his fam on the 29th&30th cos auntie asked me to go, go, go. &im gonna try and make up for not going to the FamFunction last weekend cos i had to work ): &on top of everything, im still gonna find time to go back home at least once a week. Its gonna be a busy month, but im up for it. Toodaloo.