Clean up for the New Year.

Winter break, FINALLY. I am so over school. I just want to zoom through second semester and fckin graduate already ! Man oh man. Right now though, everything seems to be falling back into place. I've gotten rid of the unnecessary stresses in my life, and im finally living life the way im supposed to.

College, oh my gawd. Just the thought of it scares me.
Hope i get accepted to SF or SAC ! =/

Im not gonna lie, it was hard at first, but as i reminded myself of all that you put me through, everything you made me feel.. it just made things alot easier. All i had to do was make the bad things outweigh the good things. I used to think, man.. the good times were really good. But i switched it up. Now i think.. Man, the bad times were really BAD. & everyone was right. What was i thinking to ever let a guy disrespect me like you did. I was out of my right mind to ever let you treat me the way you did, speak to me the way you did, and doubt me the way you did. I desesrve so much better, and i am finally coming to terms with that. Now that i think of everything that you've ever put me through, im surprised i didnt walk out a long time ago, when i should've. I've stuck around through eveything for you, just hoping you'd realize how down i was for you. I stuck around, hoping you'd change and finally stick to what you used to say. I wanted to believe the better side of you was permanent, but it wasnt. I endured all the yelling, all the fights, and every single hurtful thing you did/said to me, hoping it would all pay off in the end. Boy, was i wrong. You were the untimely drug i was so addicted to. I ignored my family, my friends, my BEST friends, YOUR friends and everyone else just for you. I was such a fool to ever have believed you had my best interest at heart. Second chances, i understand. But thirds, fourths, and fifths. Unacceptable. Im good, now. No thanks to you.