long nights

Game in Lodi today. We play Stag and Armijo. Ooowee, can you say tiring ? Thank goodnes its a long drive though. I'm gonna try and sneak in a little nap on the way up there. Me and baby are going in as doubles, while a lot of other people are going in as singles. This should be an interesting day. Well, not interesting. Just long.

Its been the same for the past couple of days now. Go to school, go to practice, unless we have a game, go home, finish all the homework thats been unloaded on me, barely have time to eat, go to sleep past midnight, and wake up to do the same thing all over again. Its so tiring, im so drained. Mentally, emotionally and physically. There's just so much going on, i wanna take a break from everything. I can't miss a day of school because if i do, im either missing practice or a game. And if i miss practice, i cant play in the game. BOO. I've been falling asleep in class more, which is no bueno because teachers dont seem to like that (sense my sarcasm), and by the time i get home, i dont even have the energy to finish my homework. A whole week off from school sounds so good right now. Just chill at home, watch tv, lay in bed, catch up on some sleep, actually eat some good food. Oh man, that sounds like the good life right now. Mmm. Just gotta wait for season to be over i guess. We'll see how things pan out from here.

And you. You are such a distraction. You dont even have to say anything, but yet you are still such a distraction to me. you are such a mystery to me, STILL. We're up, we're down. I just want to get over the whole thing already. I mean, i am but i'm not. If that makes any sense in the least. I care, but i dont want to. There are days when i just want to have a good conversation with you, but god. Sometimes you can be so RUDE. And then i think to myself, "why even bother?"

"It was you that i ever really wanted. Not the new you, but the one that i was so accustomed to."